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(no subject)	[Nov. 18th, 2009\|01:41 pm]
A student asked his teacher, "What is love?" The teacher said, "to get an answer to your question, go to the wheat field, get the biggest wheat grain, and come back." But the rule is - you can go through the field only once and cannot turn back to pick." The student went to the field, gone through the first row, and saw one big wheat grain. But he wondered....may be there is a bigger one else where. Then he saw a bigger one. But may be there is a still bigger one waiting.... Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he realized that the wheat grains there are not as big as the previous one. He realized that he has missed the biggest one. So, he ended up the search and went back empty hand. The teacher told him, "That is love! If you keep looking for a better one, you could have missed the right person!" "Then, what is marriage?" the student asked. The teacher said, "to get an answer to your question, go to the same wheat field again, and get the biggest corn. Same rule as before!" The student went to the corn field. This time he is very careful not to repeat the previous mistake. When he reached the middle of the field, he picked one good sized corn. He felt satisfied, and came back. The teacher told him, "You have looked for one that is just good for you, instead of coming back empty handed. That is marriage!" "What is Friendship then?" the student asked. The teacher said, "in order to answer that question, go to the same field and choose the wheat that appears nice to you. The rule is is the same." The student went to the field. This time he is very careful. As he started scanning the field, he has picked many grains that suited his taste and come back to the teacher. The teacher told him, "You looked for one that is just nice for you, and did not look for the best. That is Friendship".
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(no subject)	[Oct. 31st, 2009\|12:45 am]
SCHOOL SUCKS. LIFE SUCKS. PERIOD.
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[Oct. 15th, 2009|10:16 pm]

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Just when i thought i could take a break after mid-terms, i came to the sudden realization that there's only 5 more weeks left till final exams. Including projects and presentations which are largely due within these 2 to 3 weeks. Spell doom for me with a capital D? Got back BGS results and though i was rather satisfied with the grade alone considering the amount of effort i actually dedicated to that module, its considered quite bad if you compare it with the class (IMO). Mgmt Comms project grade was rather good, though i wished we could have gotten an A+ instead. Guess i really have to buck up, i honestly don't wanna lose sight of my cum laude.

Have been indulging in retail therapy just to make myself feel better. So superficial, i know.

I hate my lifeeeeeeeeee.

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[Sep. 30th, 2009|11:40 pm]

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Virgin time driving after not going behind the wheel for about 3 weeks. And on the highway. Felt the adrenaline rush as i cruised along the highway, got tempted to add pressure on the accelerator cause the feeling was damn good! But crap i totally suck at directions and parking! Had to try 3 times before i could get into the lot. "Awesome" much.

Met 2/3 of MG in the evening, dinner at Burger Shack. Food was rather deeeeelish! Wouldn't mind going back there again :D Then waited for MacBurger to come before heading to Island Creamery for desserts. Zomg hahaha camwhored like nobody's business, OUR FORTE! :D :D Had so much fun and laughter camwhoring with Burger's MacBook. Fun like anything! Classic footage of Shona dropping her _______. Ghimmy and Burger witnessed it in slow motion OMG i cant believe i missed that! Really miss MG truckloads, and i can honestly say they've been one of the most incredible thing that happened to me in my 19 years of existence <3 LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU LOADSSSS!

p/s: I really really miss JC life aplenty D:

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(no subject)	[Sep. 27th, 2009\|10:37 pm]
For once i wish i was a doctor. And omg it really sucks to feel helpless. Was walking home after tuition when this girl who was somewhere near me just suddenly fell to the ground. At first i thought she tripped over something but i knew something was wrong after she still hadn't managed to get up after a few seconds had passed. She just lay there face down, motionless and convulsing. She had a fit i guess and in a matter of seconds everyone started swarming around her (typical kpo singaporeans). But crapppp i didn't know what to do! Like should i call an ambulance, or tell the MRT personnel at the control station or yada yada. The latter called the ambulance (i think) and wtf i was totally at a loss! Some kind soul turned her to the side and thank god she was rather conscious of her surroundings but couldn't talk. This uncle beside me was telling me "just reassure her" so i went "relax" and "breathe" all the while. Shucks i felt so dumb! Like i could have done something more productive if i at least had some medical knowledge. But all i could do was say those two words. Hahaha wth. Well i do hope she's fine already :D On a lighter note, Laksa steamboat with the Pru people yesterday! Was better than expected really. I thought the bill would come up to more than 100 bucks since it was a-la carte style but it was $70+ for just 8 people, and food was rather delish too. Thanks Ghimmy for the recommendation! :D But what a pity cause some of them had to leave early. In the end Adeline Ghimmy and me went to Yew Tee for desserts, and as usual talked till the cows came home. Speaking of outings, haven't been seeing MG in eons D: I really miss them A380 loads. I bet life would be 259435702950 times better if only all of us were in the same uni and same course, taking the same mods. Spells havoc. But i like! :D Miss those days when we used to chatter damn loudly walking from one class to another, i remember what Shona said about us being a mass of noise, HAHAHAHA how true was that! Doodling on each other's lecture notes, sniggering at each other during lectures and me ogling at Mr Koh! LOLLLL. To gossiping even during breaks, me and Shona searching for our "Fun" (Chee Cheong Fun!! HAHAHA) and not forgetting camwhoring our way throughout the whole of 2008! MG's forte :D Meet up soon okayssss! I know we've been talking about meeting up since forever but just TRYYYY :D Such a huge contrast to the kind of life i'm having now. Oh, if you can even call that a LIFE. School sucks; Life sucks; 2009 sucks.
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(no subject)	[Sep. 23rd, 2009\|02:23 pm]
Stop playing mind games already.
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(no subject)	[Sep. 21st, 2009\|03:48 pm]
I've got a love-hate relationship with school. I love it cause of the wonderful friends i've made there though i'm sad to say its only a couple of them. The pathetic thing is, this is the only reason why i love school. Okay, you could probably include Samba as one of the other reason. I hate school cause i hate the modules i'm taking, nothing really fascinates me. I can't complain that schoolwork is crushing me to death cause i've got friends who are worse off (crap next sem my turn to die) than me. School's culture is a-okay but i can't help but feel envious of my peers who are in the other unis, they seem to be having quite some fun with inter-fac games and hall activities yada yada. SMU spells b-o-r-i-n-g with a capital B. SMU please prove me wrong... Hate that we have to print out all our notes OURSELVES (okay like who doesn't) but my printer's being such a bitchhhhh! Consumes ink like its FOC. And also because i cannot find a single ounce of motivation to study. Probably i should learn from retard. "I shall reward myself with a Kate Spade wallet if i can make it onto the Dean's list." HAHAHA NICE ONE BUT WALAU IMPOSSIBLE, FOR ME. LOL. Retail therapy last saturday was awesome possumzxz! :D But i spent alot and have yet to pay my premium (it's overdue =x) hahaha and omg after visiting retard's blog i was super intrigued by Lookbook! Samba handover this Thurs should i go??? Theme's "Old Hollywood Glamour", think Audrey Heburn. Hmmmm. And i cannot stop thinking that _____________________.
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[Sep. 17th, 2009|12:11 pm]

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Samba welcome session yesterday was a-okay. Got posted to bells with 7 other girls, was actually secretly hoping i could get posted to surdo! Free dinner for seniors ordered pizza, played some random games and thats about it. Stupid much, waste of time going there! Well at least i got to know some other people so its not that bad, but omg Samba camp during recess week when i thought i could bid adieu to camps D:

Rushed to meet the girls after meeting and it was sooo good! :D haven't been seeing them in the longest time ever, love them loads. Really miss those times when we attended campfires together and getting high together, organising guides meetings with them (though it was sucky but it was the company that mattered, and the bond fostered) and doing stupid things together! Meet up soon okayyy i miss you people alrdy! :D

Retard introduced me this super awesome song, got me friggin' addicted to it. IDIOTTTTTT.

Two Is Better Than One - Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When it's all said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

p/s: I NEED RETAIL THERAPYYYYY

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[Sep. 14th, 2009|10:04 pm]

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FA lesson was uber entertaining it was just tough to stifle my laughter; i had to duck under the table to laugh HAHAHAHA. Thats what you get from sitting with retarded people during lessons. FREEEEEGIN FUNNY OMG. To be exact we weren't even sitting together, we were sitting 3-by-3, separated by a single row. Kudos to FB and MSN. I think we probably wouldn't get any work done for FA project at this rate. LOLLLL. Think i have never laughed this much during school other than Intro Econs lesson, omg that prof is as good as none.

Seeing my friends being so stressed out over school makes me fearful. Don't know if its because my mods are slack or the problem lies with me. Definitely hope its the latter, and damnit i can smell mid-terms already...

Got into Samba, hope it'll be heaps of fun. And time-consuming...... NOT!

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(no subject)	[Sep. 9th, 2009\|12:51 am]
Today has been infinitely good :D At long last, i can bid goodbye to L plates :D Was super lucky for 2 more demerit points and i wouldn't have gotten my license already. Surprisingly i didn't feel nervous during the test, probably because i thought i would fail (well i nearly did). Stupid motorcylist made me gain 4 demerit points for 'Failure to confirm safety'. I thought motorcyclists would give way to double L plate users! >:( Oh well, at least i passed :D I'm finally over the stage whereby it was just depressing to hear Mr Tan saying how could i have done better, plus the fact that it was just so taxing to learn driving and school at the same time AND i was paying for my lessons just made driving super stressful. I guess i was one of Mr Tan's worst student, hahaha. As much as i tried to absorb what he taught me but i still kept on making the same mistakes over and over again i think he got quite fed up at times LOL. Had to head back to school for lessons and proj meeting, omg spoilerrrrrr! But at least i got to meet that retard :D p/s: Retard when are we gonna rent our Beetle hahahahaha me love you loads:D
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Soulmate;	[Aug. 26th, 2009\|11:03 pm]
School has been hell, every Tuesday i come out of class feeling more demoralized than ever. 3 projects on hand but i guess i should count my lucky stars for groupmates seem fine, esp BGS (: Tons of readings and assignments to do, but where is the motivation? Feeling like shit because of school doesn't push me to study and that alone is bad enough. On a happier note i cannot wait for this Friday, SMUX skating clinic! Hope me and Rach won't make a fool out of ourselves like we did yesterday during Samba tryout hahahaha. Samba tryout was fun but me and Rach were the only ones with zilch rhythm sense. My personal favourite instrument is still the bells though i still love playing the drum, rhythm was catchy but with the steps it was just impossible to coordinate. Well either i have bad coordination skills or i dont have much music inclination. Guess its both. Am keeping my fingers crossed for Samba auditions though. Jr introduced this song to me and i totally love it! Sideline - Marina Chello I can't keep waiting, waiting I can't keep waiting, waiting Show me a sign Give me a reason to believe in your smile Cause I'm not seeing anything on your face It's like our love was erased From your eyes Throw me a rope Don't leave me drowning in an ocean so cold I really need you to help me understand Why you don't reach for my hand When you know I'm hurting I've been on the sideline waiting baby Feeling like I'm here alone I don't wanna be your last resort Sitting on the bench waiting for your call I thought that we were closer I try and I try and you're never around I say I won't cry, but the tears they come Pouring and the truth is I Don't wanna leave but I'm losing my mind Waiting on the sideline This is your chance Our song is playing And you should want us to dance You used to laugh when I would step on your feet Is that just a memory? Remember when we danced til the sun came up I'm not a game You can't replace me if I happen to break So don't make promises and not follow through Cause I don't do that to you Baby can you feel me, yeah? I've been on the sideline waiting for you Feeling like I'm here alone I don't wanna be your last resort Sitting on the bench waiting for your call Oh, I thought that we were closer I try and I try and your never around I say I won't cry but the tears they come Pouring and the truth is I Don't wanna leave but I'm losing my mind Waiting on the sideline Some things gotta change Cause I've been losing faith I love you but I can't wait here forever How did you get so far So far away from my heart? Don't you realize I'm here too? I can't keep waiting, waiting I can't keep waiting, waiting Cause it don't seem like you do (I can't keep waiting, waiting) Cause I am hurt (I can't keep waiting, waiting) I don't need hurt from you You got me waiting on the sideline I've been on the sideline waiting for you Feeling like I'm here alone I don't wanna be your last resort Sitting on the bench waiting for your call Oh, I thought that we were closer I try and I try and you're never around I say I won't cry, but the tears they keep Pouring down more and the truth is I Don't wanna leave but I'm losing my mind Waiting on the sideline Oooohh ohh Cause I am hurt I don't need hurt from you
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[Aug. 19th, 2009|12:21 pm]

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I don't mean to whine like a kid but school's a bitch.

Printer's down when i have to print loads of notes. Want to save and bring it over to print but I LOST MY THUMBDRIVE. Great.
Need FA text urgently but why is it that whenever i'm so close to securing a deal it gets sold out, just because i replied a few minutes late. OR, the seller doesn't reply. If that isn't enough, i bought the wrong text for Econs & Mgmt Comms.
My timetable kinda sucks.
I end lessons in the evenings on days that i have school, and no matter which mode of transport i take its the peak hour so i have to squeeze like mad. Not being able to find a seat makes it much worse cause i have to hold on to my lappy for the whole journey and my arms ache.
Classmates for this particular mod are mad competitive and i mean it. It's crazy. How to survive!?!?!
Not reading up before class = die.
How does it sound, completing the assignment beforehand when the prof hasn't even taught you ANYTHING about that chapter?
I'm effing broke now and Daddy doesn't want to give me pocket money ):

I fathom next sem's gonna be much worse for me for i'm taking heavy mods.

Okay enough of ranting, it's high time to get real. 4 years and i'm gonna live with this.

p/s: RETARD! I am seriously glad and happy for you that you got your license! You really made my day though school ruined it all, hahaha. YOU BETTER CHAUFFEUR ME SOON!!!

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[Aug. 16th, 2009|04:15 pm]

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Convocation was rather funny and um, interesting seeing the profs and dean dressed up as if SMU = Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. We even thought it was plausible that the Chancellor was the voiceover for Dumbledore in HP movies (no kidding, he really sounded like Dumbledore). But it was stupid though, Convoc wasn't as formal as i thought yet we were told to come in formal wear, and why is it that the profs have robes to wear but not us! Unfair much. Post party and games after tea reception (for parents only walau) seemed stupid so my group left early. And i mean really stupid.

Sigh still can't decide whether to go for Freshmen Bash or not...........

School seems like this hugeass monster waiting to pounce on me. It hasn't officially started and i have quite some assignments on hand already, can't imagine how lovely school can get. Whoever said uni was slack should get a life.

Goodbye to those days.

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(no subject)	[Aug. 10th, 2009\|02:07 pm]
After coming back from my third camp i officially declare my abomination for camps. Felt uber detached from the world (like jet lag) and am still feeling like this now even after 3 days and my body clock is still as screwed as ever. On a sidenote, i FINALLY got my desired modules and timeslot :D am rather content with my timetable though i'm pretty sure school will get real busy soon, sigh what can you expect from SMU. Town-ed with Bestie Lm Jr yesterday (HAPPY BIRTHDAY JR!!!!) and ended up buying things that i didn't need (MY SHOE BROKE) and walau just because of Convoc i had to buy formal wear when i could have used that money to get clothes and other stuff for school hahaha. Steamed chilli crab XLBs @ DinTaiFung was good but preferred the original ones though. Htht-ed over dinner with Bestie (love hthts with her <3) and bused home. What a memorable National Day for the bus was packed with people and it broke down along the expressway. (our first experience) Lucky we were nearing BP, got a complimentary ride back to CCK. Epic event of the day. And.... I don't know why but i don't feel the same anymore.
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(no subject)	[Aug. 2nd, 2009\|10:07 pm]
Am finally back from FTB and Bondue camp. FTB was better than expected, all thanks to fun groupmates which made everything much more bearable, even the briefings. Love my group (Royal Flush FTW!!!) but section BJ was royally screwed though. Shall never forget my virgin experience water rafting and sleeping outside the tent looking at the starry sky as well as the seemingly impossible activites which we still did manage to execute despite the many challenges during the course of the activity. Bondue was just crazy :D Am so glad i was able to make it from the second day onwards cause it was seriously a once in a lifetime experience. Slackest camp i've ever attended, 'fuck' was overused and everyone was H-I-G-H (i mean it) on the second night. The sight of people puking and having little control over their actions was just............. Glad i knew when to stop drinking, haha. Supfast (Supper + Brekkie) at some ungodly hour (about 5-ish) at Macs and totally konked out till the next morning. Groupmates and facis were really a bunch of fun and a pleasure to have. SLEAZY TWELVE FTW!!!!! :D BONDUERS; can't you see who the hell are we? I'm so so sick of camps, so much that i feel like ponning the next one, and my stupid fever is still not going away. D:
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[Jul. 22nd, 2009|10:20 pm]

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( a moment like this )( a moment like this )( a moment like this )( a moment like this )( a moment like this )

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(no subject)	[Jul. 15th, 2009\|07:06 pm]
IF Lm got the flu, i'll be the first to die cause i actually risked MY LIFE to meet her despite her not being quarantined for 7 days, yet. LOL. Not cause i missed her alot but more of me wanting to get my hands on the gifts HAHAHA JUST KEEDING LA DONT KILL ME PLEASE. Lunched with her at Clementi and ended up eating nothing but junk (that's ALWAYS the case, whatever happened to our SALAD BUFFET?) like popiah chwee kweh tang yuan cheese fries. FATTENING MAX. p/s: Lm MY blog is nicer please. And your blog name is no better off than your email add HAHAHAHA.
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The best damn thing;	[Jul. 14th, 2009\|02:46 pm]
For the record, 1. Lm and I htht-ed till 4-ish in the morning over the phone. are we lovesick or lovesick? HAHAHA. 2. I busted >$70 on a top (my FIRST) 3. The most random gift I have gotten from a friend who just came back from overseas has got to be a moisturiser.
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[Jul. 11th, 2009|10:19 pm]

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Today's flea spelled pathetic. Hahaha. But nonetheless, still enjoyed myself cause of the company, virgin time flea-ing with Ghimmy :D And super alot of funny 'first' things happened. Thanks Ghimmy for the company, or else i won't know what else to do already! Nice random talk with her on the train (LOLLL)

Walau i feel so zonked out from today's flea ):
I wanna go shopping ):
I miss Lm ):
I miss shopping at London (PRIMARK FTW!!!!!). Wanna go back someday ):
I wanna go HK ):
I can't wait to get my loot! HEHEHE AWESOME MAX <3 :D

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[Jul. 9th, 2009|02:45 pm]

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Life has been a bore so much that sometimes when i have time i'll just start to sit and contemplate life. Realised that i haven't achieved much this long break and school is starting soon (omg don't want school to start D:) when i had so much in mind to achieve when the A Levels ended last year. Unless you call learning a new skill (driving), getting a job and giving tuition a fulfilling life, then i have been just an empty shell.

I like the simple pleasures in life. Sitting by the pool, plugging into my iTouch during long bus rides or when im jogging and observing the surroundings with the song lyrics in my head and outside noises blocked out. Or simply having a meal and htht with friends. Or baking :D I've been wondering, if life's so complicated why can't there be a mechanism in our brain that enables us to only retain the happy times and forget the sad ones? Emo i know but interesting much? Hahahaha. NEED. TO. STOP. BEING. SO. EMO. ALRDY!!!! >:(

A few days ago i was chatting with Lm online and she told me to listen to Breathe by Taylor Swift ft. Colbie Caillat, didnt find it very nice at first but after listening to it a few times i got so addicted its been playing on repeat mode on my iTunes!

Breathe

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Weather's so nice it makes me want to sleep only.

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